Dah dah...

Supposed to sleep tapi sibuk check system tengok pending items..tak tenang yours truly nak berehat memikirkan esok SCO +1...

Tapi tu la..dalam pada buat semua entry on time..ada jugak variance yg sesat...so SME leader...sila la bantu yer...

Got lunch appointment tomorrow and i still can't decide what to eat....tengok mood esok macam mana...ni tengah2 malam fikir pasal makanan ni...haihhh

Anyway...

I don't think i need to justify myself here...yer la sbb yang cari pasal dulu sapa kan...lagipun jangan nak perasan sangat apa yg orang lain tulis tu semua pasal awak je...

Ok dah dah...lepas ni kita tak cakap pasal awak lagi ok? 

Cut off day and long weekend

Cut off day hari ni..marilah bekerja dengan productive gitu....ecehhh....haahahaha

Walaupun la long weekend yours truly tak berapa nak ada mood...fikir pasal keje...hmmm..pasal keje hari ni je kot fikir....esok lusa lupa jap isnin baru fikir balik....

Weekend ni byk benda nak settlekan..masquerade..shawl...fix my watches...and treat myself with sushi...yeayy..lama gila tak makan kat ichiban boshi...

On the other yours truly sedang buntu tak tahu nak fikir apa..sedih..marah..kecewa..walaupun benda tu memang dah tahu akan jadi tapi bukan sekarang..maybe i was shocked and heart broken at the same time....

Maxx the guy...

I have this weird attachment to my car...my car is my boyfriend and of course they carry a guy name...hahahah...

So last night yours truly mimpi maxx telah bertukar menjadi lelaki tetapi masihlah acting like a car...hahahha...omg..gila laaa...

Still can remember how maxx looks like as a person...japanese looks mata sepet gitu...hahahaha...

Funny thing is maxx is running around like crazy and finally hit the wall...and guess what?? He vanished into the thin air....hahahahha

Yours truly quickly running to the scene trying to find maxx only to find the reflection of maxx the car hitting the wall not maxx the guy...

Adoiii..apa punya mimpi la ni...

No more mengelat...

kelam kabut siapkan invoicing..quarter closing..lepas tu cooling period for new set of book...migrate to new company...haihhh....new project list pun tak sempat nak go through..esok pagi kena check tu...

hari ni dapat makan laksa untuk lunch...heavennnnnn.....hihihi...lepas tu petang ada cheese cake pulak...hamboi hamboi...makan tak ingat nampak..dah la berat tak turun2 lagi...dok tang tu gak...tu maksudnya kena start pegi gym balik la tu...bulan ni asik mengelat je...bulan depan sila la lari yer...

missing the other person badly...hoping we can be together soon...

700g...

ni sebab makan tak control semalam..pagi ni berat naik 700gm...terus stress sendiri....hahhah...baru 700gm dah bising...aiyohhh...nak turunkan 700gm tu sikit punya payah dengan lately kemalasan untuk pegi gym....memang la seksa....

anyway...yours truly berjaya ganti puasa jumaat dengan sabtu...cukup la kuota ganti untuk bulan ni...

this week long weekend...nak kena completekan barang untuk annual dinner...next weekend yours truly ada skytrek dengan bebudak ni...so takde masa nak settlekan benda annual dinner...

minggu ni busy dengan invoicing...in fact sekarang  ni berebut rebut data masuk...yours truly sedang prepare data nak upload dalam system...isskk...target rabu ni kena settle semua...

Tunggu je...

hoih mengantuknya...pagi pagi dah kena mendengar training yang tak ada kaitan pun tapi terpaksa gak join sebab kasi muka katanya...hahah...anyway...nasib baik training habis awal...

yours truly stress tunggu data approval...kenapa la bulan ni tak bole buat awal sikit...pening ok pening...pening memikirkan betapa rushingnya minggu depan nak buat invoicing...sakit jiwa nak marah kat sapa pun tatau...

so hari ni kita bole cuma nganga tunggu data approval....

Reducing...

got my health screening result today and yours truly is so happy...first time nama dalam list normal..hahhah...the truth is tak la normal sangat sebab cholesterol tu still tinggi...cuma dah 2 tahun reducing...jadinya seronok la sekejap...

need to continue with my green tea habit almost daily...ada la dalam 4 kali seminggu minum green tea ni...bagus gak....selain dari anti aging katanya...wahhh...patut la yours truly nampak muda lately...*cough cough...

anyway..at least one good thing happened today...walaupun pagi tadi dapat email macam jilake...lol..*tetiba type cam bebudak hipster lak.... but getting this result gave me some hope....

It just a matter of time...

rushing for external auditor ISO audit meeting...arrggghhh..kenapa la aku terlibat dalam benda ni...haihh...anyway..sila la berdoa takkan ada soalan related to billing from external auditor...

hari ni ada 2 benda je nak kena siapkan...billing for Korea then special event to clear one of the account impacted...and if i have extra time..nak siapkan billing data untuk other countries...especially for India....

owhh..i saw something whatsapp profile last night...wahhh..kemain lagi kan...hijau emerald gitu...anyway..hope that you find your happiness...and to the current wife...if he did it before..it just a matter of time he do it again....so...pandai pandai laa..

Dapat jawapan...

Been rushing for recon and yeah..managed to complete everything before lunch...then lepas lunch habiskan masa buat analysis untuk finance pulak...

Nasib baik dapat jawapan so esok boleh fokus untuk buat benda lain...legaaa.....

Tapi tu la..esok ada audit meeting pukul 1.30..rasanya memang tak sempat la nak lunch kat luar...esok dorang plan nak makan kat yoshinoya..aaaarrghh..jealous jealous nak makan jugakk....

Haihh..sakit jiwa sebab customer dengan projet setup tak complete lagi..tapi data dah approved..hangin la pulak..esok nak chase system team...

Avoiding...

taking half day leave today to renew maxx insurance...and there is possibility that i can't do it today....aihhh...worst case...jumaat ni lunch time kena lari kejap buat.....next week nak kena renew roadtax pulak....parah bulan ni banyak pakai duit....

hari ni plan siapkan satu benda je then i am off for the day...actually yours truly cuma tunggu data approved untuk buat billing ....tapi bab menunggu tu yang agak menyakitkan hati,...dah la risau pasal cooling period...nak lambat lambat ni kang rushing..takut apa2 jadi last minute...risau..risau...aihhh...

on the other hand...yours truly is type of person yang tak pandai nak tolak..tak pandai nak cakap no...i prefer to keep quiet if i don't want to do or doesn't want to involve...so kalau yours truly offering help to maksudnya memang ikhlas la nak tolong...and yeah i can't help to feel betrayed if people that close to me asked me to do things that i told them i don't like to do...

it's not my fault to feel betrayed when you asked me out to find out that you want to talk about some product or so called wealth management....it is not my fault to avoid going out with you after u made me feel betrayed....

you should know what it means when i keep avoiding to reply your message about meet up session..

Hair fall rescue...

at home dan kemalasan tahap Tuhan je yang tahu...hahahah....

struggling with hair fall problem...walaupun dah tukar shampu tapi still gugur...shampu baru tu baru guna seminggu...i changed to dove hair fall rescue...tolong la berkesan...jenuh kalau nak cari shampu lagi lepas ni...tapi bau dia best...or maybe i should use back baby shampoo like before??

cuaca mendung hari ni...yours truly breakfast agak lambat...still kenyang but i am planning to go to my favorite nasi campur before 12...hmmm...ala..cakap je still kenyang ni..kang nasi campur depan mata terus terliur...hahahhah...

this weekend plan nak dapat masquerade untuk annual dinner...i know i have another 4 weeks to go before the annual dinner...tak rushing..kalau agak agak malas esok...end of month pun sempat lagi nak cari.....

Thank you for listening...

training 1.5 hr...this conversion and day 1 make everybody nervous and busy....sighh...alot of cut off date yang kena follow..reminder sana reminder sini...aiyohhh...banyak sangat tarikh nak ingat ni....

hari ni lunch makan beef noodle soup...aihh..tak sedap langsung..rugi bayar 13 hinggit....errghhhh!

on the other note..i'm so happy to get the message this morning...thank you Allah for listening...

i promised you i will be a good person this time..better person...

Akhirnya...Sotong Bakar...

hoih team meeting yang penuh dengan kejutan...banyak pulak benda nak kena tengok lepas Day 1 ni...arrggghhh...stress betul la bila memikirkan Nov nanti macam mana...aihhh...

on the other hand..yours truly cam give up sikit...bukan...bukan give up...just making some space between us...i don't think i will give up on it...not yet...

hari ni dapat makan sotong bakar setelah sekian lama dok berzikir nak makan sotong bakar...nyumm...terus senyum lebar ....hahahha...senang betul nak kasi senyum..bagi makan je abis cerita...

A little bit here and there...

being putting up my hope...high...and continue praying for it...please please...let it work this time...and i promise you i will keep all my promises....

on the other hand...things are smooth in the office today...managed to finish my recon during 1 hour training..heheh...to be fair that training is for partner management...yours truly join just for the sake of listening...

maxx was good yesterday...ada satu je part nak kena order for the driver seat...tunggu seminggu dua tapi katanya nak pasang clip tu amik  masa satu hari...apekah?

trying to login to HR system..wanted to apply leave for next monday..nak renew insurance...tapi system down la pulak....apa ni? macam tak kasi cuti je...ahahahh....yours truly ada lagi 3.5 days nak habiskan....itu pun dah apply for Nov and Dec....

Not yet...

been trying so hard to fix the issue...and it was really hard...and i am not sure if it can be fix anymore...i'm tired...tried so hard and seems like it doesn't give much impact...not sure to give up now or try harder...maybe i just need to distance myself...and let go? but i am not ready to let go...not yet...and right now i am not sure what to do...

on the other notes..working from home today sebab petang nak bawak maxx pegi service...entah macam mana silap percaturan pulak terawal book appointment...hmm...takpe la...khamis ni training...and monday biasanya takde banyak benda...so better buat on monday...

hari ni ada new member joining our team...the team is not growing..we just replacing somebody that leaving...by next year all the team member will be here with us...so..yeay?? with new manager which is our team leader who got promoted...we will see how...

Keluhan...

perasaan  bercampur baur...tak tahu nak rasa sedih ke...apa ke...sangat confuse di situ...mungkin kali ni yours truly macam dah mengalah dan tak mampu nak menangis lagi...penat dah kot...entah...like i said..confuse dengan diri sendiri...

yang nyata memang la sedih..aihhh...penatnya bila fikir pasal benda ni...dalam keadaan yang aku benar benar memerlukan support..macam ni la pulak....sighh...

sedih sebab tahu the other side dah tak ada apa...before this diam pun tahu the other side is waiting...tapi sekarang...haihh...

setiap hela nafas dengan keluhan...macam mana ni?

Takkan...

i dont think my apology being accepted...right now i just need to accept the fact that...that...tak tahu nak cakap macam mana...entah laa...dah takde perasaan dah gamaknya...sedih..marah...semua pun ada..sampai tak tahu nak re-act macam mana dah...

everyday i need to fake a smile on my face tapi ada masanya memang tak larat nak fake smile...utk menyelamatkan keadaan yours truly hanya jalan tunduk bawah...

this time round mesti takkan dapat balik...kan?

Hurt...

not in good mood...seriously not...something happened last night and yours truly was pissed off....sebab dah pesan banyak kali and its still happened..so memang rasa marah dan mengamuk la...sighhh....

i hate being ignored...and lately i felt that...and being ignored by someone who meant the world to you...it sucks...totally sucks...

i said something hurtful yesterday and i think the other person is angry and hurting right now...now i just can lay low..really lay low...distance myself from the other person....

it's hurt...it's really hurt...

Banyaknya guna duit...

mengantuknyaa...hahahah...sindrom kemalasan ni...dad safely arrived yesterday and it was very good day for everybody...came home later to find somebody parked on my spot...macam ni la selalu bila ada party kat sky lounge....tension betul.....

next week monday yours truly pun cuti lagi sebab nak hantar Max pegi service...this month banyak betul guna duit...shopping kasut la..baju la...baju untuk annual dinner lagi...hoihhh...belum sampai 10hb yours truly dah start kira kira duit...cemana? dah la bulan ni jugak kena renew insurance dengan road tax...aiyoh...pening pening....

oh ya..bulan 11 confirmed pegi skytrex dengan bebudak ni..hahahaha...dah lama sangat nak buat benda ni tapi takde geng..sekarang dah ada terus excited nak pegi..