What did i do?

masih berbelah bahagi hati ni...tapi rasanya yours truly kena ambik extreme measure on this one? seriously i don't even know what to think or what to ask Allah anymore...

hati ni sekarang macam kalau minta salah...betul ke itu yang aku nak? tak minta rasa macam mungkin bole try minta mana tahu ada jalan lain...macam tu...

susah ok dalam dilema macam ni...separuh sudah kata give up...separuh lagi kata susahnya nak give up...arrggghhhh..seriously stress terus...

bila fikir betul2 yours truly takde buat apa pun..tak salah sikit pun...then kenapa nak rasa macam ni?

I need...

penat minda tak sama tau dengan penat badan...penat minda sebenarnya lagi teruk...

and i think i am having it right now...tido malam tak lena...terjaga tengah malam lepas tu tak bole nak tido...dah tido tapi bole rasa badan pusing pusing atas katil trying to find the good position to sleep...by the time you fall asleep dah bunyi alarm....sigghhh...

dan 2,3 hari ni ada masalah lain...lagila impacting the whole sleeping process....keje banyak tak habis habis...*tapi bila masanya keje akan habis kan?.....personal issues...nak mengadu pun tak tahu kat siapa..rasa macam penat dengan semua benda...

i need a vacation...

To breath properly...

really confusing and my head is aching...not too sure what to do anymore...i can feel the pain in my heart and really tired of the way i being treated...maybe i shouldn't be at this position anymore...

i know i am so stupid to create another opportunity to be hurt...deep down i feel that maybe this time will be different...but i was way too wrong...

i can feel my chest so tight i cannot breath properly...i just need my strength to walk away right now...

Kenapa kah...

tak suka gila bila kena paksa untuk jadi committee members for all their games whatsoever...aihhh...can i just participate? leceh kot sebab semua org dok busy dengan banyak benda...yours truly selalu je join cuma tak nak jadi lead because knowing all these people..banyak complain je dari yg buat keje...

anyway...aug dengan sept will be busy months...nak cuti sekarang ni pun teragak2..padahal cuti banyak gila lagi tak  tahu bila nak pakai....nak pegi holiday pun masalah...masalah bila nak pegi..dengan nak pegi mana...aihhh....nampaknya tahun ni holiday plan bertangguh lagi...dok cuti dalam negeri je la kita...

Closing week...

yours truly senyum lebar hari ni sebab lunch dapat makan roasted duck...yeay! dah lama kot nak makan since bulan puasa hari tu..hari ni dapat gak....

tapi lepas tu menahan mata mengantuk...bukan makan nasi pun..noodle je..tapi tah kenapa cam mengantuk gila...mungkin sebab mata dok berpinar check line item satu satu...terus juling...

hari ni plan nak siapkan invoicing untuk India sebab esok nak buat correction dalam GL balance dengan accrual...bulan ni macam slow sebab quarter closing...ada 5 minggu...so yours truly having some extra time to complete everything...

oh lepas closing dah ada macam macam plan...excited!

Bersemangat....

Bangun pagi kelaparan so apa lagi lepas subuh ada orang tu dah beratur kat mdc drive thru...hahahah...dan sekarang ni melepek kat sofa...

We are going to have our team building in morning session dekat ecurve...and yours truly still thinking should i checking my outlook or not...

Tak payah la kang mula la meleka lepas tu kang kelam kabut nak bersiap..tak boleh nak agak traffic menghala ke sana so better keluar awal skit...

Seems like i am going to work this weekend...dah tu 2 hari training yours truly mengelat tak buat keje...and at the same time we are starting our India invoicing this month..lagi la panic....

Sila la redha dengan apa je...

Terlebih makan kot?

Penatnyaa...training dah la mengantuk...pastu banyak pulak issue kat India punya customer setup...jenuh la nak betulkan tu....

Ada lagi invoicing nak kena settle...esok ada team building...mlm ni nak rushing siapkan setup..haihh..tu pun tah bila dorang bole betulkan..risau ni....

Mungkin betulkan setup kat file dulu so that macro bole show address yg betul...

Pening kepala malam semalam terlebih makan kimchi...hahahah

Lagi 1kg...

minggu yang busy....2 full day training...then team building...bila masa nak buat keje ni?

semalam kelam kabut siapkan invoicing..then hari ni nak settelkan sikit lagi....petang je dah busy nak buat shooting for MV...tak abis abis kan dengan MV ni...

perut sebu...tak tahu kenapa...mungkin bloated..walaupun la yours truly cuba control makan...masih struggle untuk turunkan another 1kg...haihh...planning nak start lari next month...or maybe next week? susah sangat nak turunkan lagi 1kg..so maknanya kena start exercise yerr...

this week dah la banyak aktiviti melibatkan makan...this weekend pun gamaknya makan makan lagi....

Bila masanya?

hoih pagi lagi dah bertenggek kat blog ni..nampak sangat pemalasnya...

hari ni plan cuma nak siapkan SG setup..then start buat recon...tapi tu la...dah duduk depan laptop ni dekat setengah jam..dok mengadap chrome je..bila masa yang buat keje kalau camtu? heh!

anyway..weekend ni ada kenduri nak kena pegi...then ahad takde plan..tapi baru perasan yang yours truly takde white shirt untuk shooting selasa depan..sila la beli...sendiri juga yang pilih white shirt + jeans...ingatkan yang ada kat rumah ni ok..mana tahu nampak buruk pulak...so ahad ni misi mencari baju la nampaknya...

next week schedule full...penang team turun cyber sebab ada 2 full day training...which yours truly rasa takde la perlu sangat but somehow all the so-called accountant kena go through...lantok la...bole bayangkan muka masing masing menahan mengantuk later on...

One thing at a time...

should be in good mood coz last night i got to talk to en bunny and this morning we catch up with each other again....but somehow looking at my outlook and my to do list...my morning suddenly became gloomy and here i am writing on my blog...way too early....

luckily i don't have any meeting today..so the target is to complete some of customer and project setup form...that's it...i will only do my GL recon tomorrow...and start my invoicing next week....

i don't have the mood to do alot today...just one piece per day and i'm done....

Pening...

yours truly banyak gila keje tak menang tangan..rasa nak nangis pun ada sebab baaaanyak sangat issue tak settle...

tido malam pun tak berapa nak nyenyak...asik la mimpi sepanjang tido...by the time rasa lena..dah dengar bunyi alarm...haihhh...

tolongla banyak sangat benda nak kena settle sampai tak tahu nak start yang mana dulu....

hari hari mengadap issue rasa nak muntah pun ada...

Selepas cuti panjang...

at office today...traffic was okay la...maybe masih ramai yang tak balik dari kampung lagi...

office pun slow saja..mungkin ramai yang sambung cuti panjang hari tu..so everybody in relax mood...

1 month tak keluar lunch everybody excited to bring yours truly for lunch..walaupun sebenarnya maaaalas sangat nak keluar...rasa nak makan kat cafe je...and somehow they make it like i am the one who wanted to eat outside...iskkk...

sekarang  balik dari lunch mengantuk...dah la malam ni ada conference call lagi..baru ingat nak pegi gym pukul 9...nampaknya sebelum maghrib la pegi gym macam ni...

Raya this year...

Salam Aidilfitri...yours truly dah tak sambut raya sebab hari ni je dah mengadap laptop attending all the emails...

Catching up with issues and writing to do list for these few days...

Foreseeing July's weekend will be full of open houses..and also wedding..it's good coz it's been awhile we had wedding at my mum's side..good time to catch up everybody i guess...

Raya was okay for me..but i had to go back early due to...hmmm...i am avoiding to say alot of thing actually..so after awhile can't take it anymore..i better excuse myself from the area...

Feels good to be home....

Salam Aidilfitri dari pemasak sup tulang...

esok raya dah and yours truly is currently busy with her signature menu...sup tulang....heh! sedang merebus tulang dan sambil sambil tu prepare bahan bahan untuk bihun sup....

dikesempatan ini saya ingin mengucapakan Selamat Hari Raya Aildilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin....

eh, dah kenapa bunyi macam ucapan perdana menteri lak ni? ahahahah...anyway...hopefully everybody will have a wonderful time with families this holiday...

as usual..yours truly balik kampung dekat je...setengah jam dah sampai...tak perlu meredah jammed bersesak bagai di lebuhraya gitu.....

we don't really have plans for raya..and by saturday yours truly dah ada balik kat damansara ni mengadap kerja...oh well...

Jenuh la mengganti...

huarrggghhh...mengantuknya..baru pukul 9 lebih mata dah macam kena gam...letih sangat hari ni..(padahal bukan puasa pun)...yours truly raya awal tahun ni..dan mendapat la kan nak ganti puasa dekat separuh bulan...*bengang jeee....

hari ni shooting for another music video...then habis..tak yah pening pening dah...yang ni pakai kepak fairy je cukup...hahaha..dasar pemalas....

malam ni sebelum tido kena keluarkan tulang dari freezer...esok pagi bole la menyiang tulang dan daging...lepas zuhur boleh start masak sup tulang....sambil sambil tu packing untuk raya..*padahal balik dekat sangat setengah jam dah sampai...tapi masih la kena packing sebab balik lama...heh!

malam esok pun dah ada plan...raya pertama ada plan...dah tu raya kedua masing masing takde idea nak ke mana...errr...takkan kita dok umah je kot?

Lagi 4 hari....

Jumaat...dan lagi 4 hari kita akan beraya...cepat betul..pejam celik pejam celik nak raya dah...yours truly was so busy with music video this week...penat tak payah cakap la...outdoor shooting sampai satu tahap nak bukak puasa dah....hahhhaha...nasib baik dah settle tinggal another one session next monday...

weekend nak kena beli barang untuk masak raya ni...macam biasa..yours truly buat bihun sup tulang la...teringin lontong tapi tak tahu la sapa akan buat....monday still kena masuk office...worst come to worst mungkin beli barang hari isnin tu...

tak berapa nak excited nak raya...tak tahu kenapa..mungkin sebab dah tua ni kan....haihh..